Ode to the Lesbian brotherhood...

OKMG is going to be rewarding; actually, it is rewarding. I'm learning new things - ones that I never knew that I could do. I'm treating my baby the ways she deserves to be treated. But, it's also frustrating - really frustrating.

This is a growing process - for the both of us, I know. Never before have I put my heart out on the line and I'll be damned if it isn't getting kicked around (OK, maybe just nudged not-too-nicely). The longer I do OKMG (It's been almost a month, if you can believe that) the less and less sure of success I am. Not because of T and I, we are fairly sure that we're going to make it. But because of our friends words to T. They make her think and I don't want her to think!

To clarify, they all, save one, put it to her as to why is she doing this? Why is she waiting the 3 months? It's not going to work out. They point out to her that we've been down this road (although, not so far) before and what is really going to change? Why can't she wake up and see? And it makes me quake down to the very core of my being.

I know that our/her friends only have their best intentions toward T; only one or two may have their own agenda. They mean me no harm or malice. Really, I know this. And, honestly, were this situation happening to someone else, I would probably tell them to do the same thing. Get the hell outta dodge and make it quick. Matter of fact, I have done it before. And, wouldn't you know it, they ignored me and those friends of mine are still together, working through their problems and doing well.

Who was I to get in their business (we're still friends)? I didn't know the intimate details of their relationship. I didn't know their committment and love to each other. Just as people do not know ours.

I also know that if T is thinking those things, than I can't stop her. And maybe that's how it's supposed to be. But, T's not, for the most part, thinking to move on. Rather, I should say, she's committed to working things out. Our friends should respect that. Perhaps it's because they don't get what we're doing: WTF are you doing? You've moved out and y'all are still trying to work on it? Weird, man.

Our friends are not in our relationship and they need to understand that. They don't need to understand what we are doing, but they need to respect it.

I really love T. I really want to make it work more than ever. I'm committed to this, we are committed to this. That's what should be important.

Sunshine

PS This isn't meant to be a diatribe (I just wanted to use a big word.) to our friends. I love all of y'all and I know you love me!