Stop! In the name of Love!

I didn't really want to post today, but I hate to leave it on such a dour (or whatever) note.

I am completely frustrated at this relationship. I was talking/e-mailing Maidink about why the hell I am still continuing on with this relationship when there are SO many things evidently wrong with it. Especially since I never would have pegged myself as the type of woman to do this. I thought I was a "OK, you fucked me over or hurt me, so now I'm leaving"-type of person. Apparently, I'm not.

Anyway, my point to Maidink, was that I think there is still something left to hold on to. I know that we can get through this ish, but we just need to get through it. My reasons (one and two) still stand.

Tara likes to say that we are at a rebirth of our relationship -

- At this point, I like to interject a nasty directed word in my head, but I don't say it out loud, because we wouldn't need a rebirth if ... But, it really wouldn't help the situation. -

- Moving right along!

We are learning to retrust each other. Or, more accurately, talking about what we are going to do to trust each other. I have no idea how we are going to do this. My walls got put back up real quick the other day and now I gotta figure out how to bring them back down again, because I know it will do me NO good to keep them up. And, Tara also has her trust issues.

Oy, I really want this to work.

Sunshine