Shape-up ramblings

Skinny, attractive people make me feel insecure. It's not their fault, it's mine. They didn't do anything - except be skinny and attractive, DAMNIT - to make me feel this way. I need to work on appreciating my exotic (I'm part Latina, yo!), full-figured* (not fat, never fat), curvy body.

I actually like my body overall. I have a chest and a butt that is the envy of all flat-chested, stick-figured women everywhere (It's my fantasy, let me have it!). But, there are a few things that I'm not so happy with. I have thick thighs and a tummy that makes me look several months pregnant (seriously) when I let it loose. I have come to terms with the belly, that's just genetics and even when I was in my best shape, I had the belly. But those thighs... It's funny, because that is probably Tara's favorite body part on me. Go figure.

So, I weighed myself today and I must say that I am not happy at all. But, I haven't done crap about eating better. Sure, I've added more fruit, but not decreased the junk food. But, more importantly, I haven't been exercising. I do have legitimate excuses - I had minor surgery at the beginning of this month (nothing major, no worries) and my schedule has been a bit difficult. Before, I was power walking on my lunch hour, but now, I can't take lunches since I am making up class time (my class is during work and they're letting make up the hours).

So, I need to get a bit more creative until my schedule lightens up. I am already taking belly dance classes (my tummy does look amazing when I flex it right), but, so far, there's no cardio in that; I suspect that will kick in soon. Starting on Monday (not because of the proverbial "I'll start my diet after the weekend", but because I don't have any walking shoes today), I am going to take 15 min power walks at least twice a day. This will be good because I'll be able to get some fresh air and get off my duff.

Also, and maybe obviously, I need to reign in the eating a bit. I have been doing the "Well, I want to eat it, so I am going to eat it" and that, um, hasn't been helping my situation. Additionally, I have realized recently (OK, yesterday) that I need to wait 15 mins after I eat something before I eat something else. I have this annoying thing that after I eat and if I don't get full, just satisfied, my stomach feels empty and I want to eat. So, I am going to give myself 15 mins before I consume cough-inhale-cough something else.

Last weigh-in: 169.2
This weigh-in: 170.2

Change: +1.0
Total change: +1.8

I think I am going to do a table like Flip this body.

Sunshine

*This might be a misnomer, because I am between a size 10 and 12 and I think full-figured is like 16+. But, I am definitely curvy.